You ever get the feeling that you're in over your head? You ever wonder why you have to feel the way you do when it doesn't benefit anyone, especially not yourself? You ever think about when it will be your time, and that finally that one little tick you couldn't seem to shake off will release itself from you and go elsewhere? You ever feel like you should have learned from your mistakes and soon you can take the higher road, but that other road keeps dragging you back in?Who said it's easy to learn from your mistakes? And how can you learn from a mistake that just won't leave you alone?
Thinking is hard on the mind and body. Yet, at the same time, it's incredible to imagine and explore the possibilities. I get carried away though. The problems that made up my life are resurfacing. I'm doing my best to ignore them, which isn't as difficult when I'm occupied with other things. It's harder though when I look at other people and notice that they aren't dealing with what I am dealing with right now. No one else can understand how hard this is, and I wouldn't want anyone to either. Still, I wish that one day I can look back at these problems and say, "Wow, I'm glad that's over, because I truly have something better to live for now." But when? Will it really take another year? Or two? Or five? Or am I just meant to deal with this for the rest of my life, stuck on this road I'm on, while everyone turns onto the other road?
When will I finally be able to travel on the other road?
1 comment:
I am sorry you are feeling so down. I don't really know what you are referring to but I know Christ has gone through it all.
I hope it works out for you :)
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