The Only Constant is Change

At first, I wanted to write "The Only Constant is Chang". =P Six seasons and a movie. (And the Chang puns are great because I can adapt a lot of them to fit my name too. HA!)



Change can be scary. It can also be exciting. This isn't a profound set of thoughts meant to reveal that a big change is in store for me, because as of this moment, there isn't one. It is instead an outlet for letting out my feelings of fear coupled with doses of optimism.

A friend is going through a big change right now that just began, and it has affected me more than I expected it would. I suppose that his big change is mine as well, to a far lesser extent of course. And with it just starting, I have reacted strangely. As excited as I am for him, I have been somewhat concerned as to how I'll make it through. It reminds me of when Abed was struggling to cope when Troy moved out to go to the air-

conditioning repair school, and then Evil Abed shows up, but that's another story. The point being, I was trying  to make the most of the time I had with him when he was here, knowing that soon it would be gone and that it would be a long time until we see each other again. And now he is far away, and I have been okay, better than I expected, but still oddly withdrawn. A part of me is scared that in the future we will not have what we do have now, and how hard it will be to find someone else who I can have that with. Another part of me knows that a lot will be happening, and regardless of how it affects me, I need to embrace it. It's all quite strange. Strange change.

In connection to all this, Community makes me SO happy, especially the moments where I can relate to Abed. This recent quote from him, for instance:

"I was trying to hang on to this moment because I was so afraid of the future, but then I realized all of this was once the future. And it was completely different from what I had known before, and it was happening so fast. But in the end, or in the now I guess, it turned out great."

It's TRUE.

Eight years ago (tomorrow), I made a decision that changed my life for the better: baptism into the LDS church. It has been the best decision I have ever made thus far. I also look at the other events that have happened in my life, and so much has happened that I never imagined would happen. I know I shouldn't be worried about the future, because at one point, what is now my present was once my future, and I didn't expect to be where I'm at, doing all that I'm doing, not to mention all of the incredible people who have come into my life. I don't know what the future holds, and it terrifies me to think about it, and yet I know that good things are in store.

And I know that (who was the closest to being) the Troy to my Abed is exactly where he needs to be right now. And I'm proud of him. Cool. Cool cool cool.